Writing Exercises on Election

Note: This poem actually comes from Matthew's Hours, but it also worked as a writing exercise so I posted it here as well. Written in the style of Rainer Maria Rilke, expressing desire and the frustrations of not understanding everything about God.

Romans 11

i want to be the morning light,
slowly dispersing over hills to
drive the dark off the rocks.

My unbelief burns brighter,
for where You have abandoned
mountains, dug lonely caves

i wish to explore, to invade
these unelected quarries with
my oscillating flame. Underneath

i may find those uncalled by You.
i don't understand. i want to.
Lest i flare indignant, i must admit,

if there are some You do not want
then i will go, offer sorrow, apology,
and perhaps a cup of tea,

then hopelessly hope they will walk back to You
with me.